Ms.Tabbi's class journal (4/29/11)

If you could change something (or 3 things) about yourself, what would they be?

If I could change three things about myself the first would be to have a hard shell, where nothing got to me and upset me. I'm a very, very sensitive person and I wish so bad that I could just put up a wall around myself and not let things get me so worked up. But unfortunatly I guess that's part of who I am and part of what makes me me, but I certainly wish it wasn't part of me I'd rather just have a tough exterior that painful stuff just bounces right off of and never really gets let in at all.


Another thing that I would change about myself is to no longer have any fears. Life could and would be soooo different for me if I didn't have any fears at all. No more scared to go outside because of bugs for example would mean I could actually go outside and swim and play and have fun like a normal person rather than hiding and cowering inside. Or, if I didn't have fears of people then I would be able to work and go out and do things, go out to eat, all sorts of things that most people take totally for granted.


Lastly the other thing I'd like to change about myself is that I'd love to be able to just speak my mind and tell people what I was thinking and feeling, rather than just holding everything inside because I'm too afraid of things coming out wrong and loosing people or hurting people. My sister in law is that way, she doesn't hesitate to tell anyone what she thinks and feels and some people think she's a bad word I can't say because of it, but she's so totally not, she's just honest and up front and able to share what's on her mind without caring what others think. If they don't like it, then she really don't care. She says it's not good to be like her I'm better the way I am, but I'd so much rather be like her then always hurting 'cause I can't tell people how things are really making me feel.